I am an allergy rhinitis victim , i suffer almost every day .. I feel suffocated on most days .. I struggle to breathe on so many day and nights . It used to irritate me immensely as a teenager and it still does. I still hate this feeling as much as I hated it ages ago. I still suffer the same way I used to. I have seen so many people come and go out of my life and I have seen how their perception of my health changed . I used to dread going to the doctor alone, I used to pity myself al the times but things changed this allergy has taught me a BIG Lesson and I will remain eternally thankful to it for teaching me that :

Nothing is constant , not love , not care not even sympathy 🙂 . It also taught me everyday is a new day , just because i was nice yesterday it doesn’t mean I don’t have to be nice today.

There was a time when people would rush and buy me medicines, would call and offer help,offer to make food, advise me to take care , make me feel good and gradually I realised the same people started looking through me , I was labelled a patient , sealed my fate and moved on with their chores . I was hurt, I wanted the same attention , I am unwell I said but it fell on deaf ears. I realised my battle is mine ..

It took a while for me to realise that it was never a deliberate attempt but its only human to take things for granted , how many times can anyone do the same thing? they did it the last time and then again . I realised that no one or nothing is constant . My suffering will remain with me, my health is my priority not anyone else’s .Intensity of my suffering has not changed but yes intensity of how others treat me changed..

Something struck me today and I wanted to pen this down. Its only us who has to be responsible for ourselves and we should never take ourselves for granted . I also learnt that over a period of time we learn to live with what we have  , its just a matter of time .. Everything and everyone has a lesson to part with, we have to just listen ..

Achoooo! sorry that was a sneeze 🙂