Tag: healing

Embracing you!

I always tell people that if we were diagnosed with mental health issues, most of us would be tested for something positive. Conditions like OCD, ADHD, or Dyslexia are some examples. We live in a country where we have a community with immense support. There are families , friends , neighbors etc (many with no boundaries!). As a result, mental health takes a back seat. The western culture approach is so radically different and therapy is a part of life. We as a Nation are catching up of course. I was walking in the park one morning and my eye fell on this piece of paper on the ground.

I glanced at it and kept walking but by the time I finished a loop of the park ,my mind stuck to that pamphlet and took me on a journey 🙂 . For the most part of my school I always read a to-let board as toilet. I consistently and continuously did this irrespective of on what building the board was! 

I never spoke out or asked anyone why is that house or building called a Toilet? I never reasoned it out nor did I have the courage to talk out loud and become a laughing stock! At some point, I had an epiphany but I have no memory of when exactly. I realized it read TO-LET(woo hoo!), which has a totally different meaning. I kept asking myself,” how did I miss the hyphen” for all of the past years but I never got an answer. I buried it in the hatchet and moved on. That morning, the pamphlet resurfaced the memory and I was compelled to share it.

I am sure I had my reasons to be embarrassed as a kid. I was not comfortable being honest or vulnerable for the fear of being judged perhaps? I hope I don’t give or be a reason for anyone around me to feel the way I did. This is silly but it stayed with me which means it meant something!

Feels so good to let this cat out! What is that silly thing which is of no significance in this Universe that you are holding on to? Care to share with me or talk out loud? I promise its worth it!

Love 

Bindu 

How not to be “happy”!

Why don’t we wonder why the Doctor doesn’t put the band aid without cleansing the wound .

Why don’t we ask questions when we are told we need a clean face to apply make up?

 Why do we clean the utensils before we cook or eat on them again with no questioning ?
and many more questions popped on my mind . Just that my mind said its because they are things we are aware of ? isnt that common sense ? Come on Bindu! dont ask stupid questions it says.
Then I have another question if thats the case then why don’t we vent out what troubles us ? why do we pretend to be happy and all ok? In the last few days I have had the privilege to meet many strong people and realised that most of us don’t want to confront the truth and all we want to do is go with the flow and live under the presumption that all will be ok . we have always been told and made to believe that crying is for the weaker ones, especially the men (i feel sorry for them). So obviously why would anyone share , vent it out, avoid a volcano from bursting? Its the unaware mode where the mind is dictating what one should do next and with no after taught we operate like robots listening to all the commands we receive at all times . It took a while for me to realise what was happening , the best tool of course is meditation which makes things clearer. When I see most living in a oblivion I thought I should write about this because I am of the belief that life is not long enough for us to learn from our own mistakes so why not learn from others . If there is a problem, its important to choose a person with whom we can share our thoughts and of course one who doesn’t judge . It helps immensely if the thoughts are penned down and read out  , what I am trying to convey is , if the thought has been penned down or voiced out how many times will it occur again? All that the mind wants is importance for what it is saying and the moment we are aware about the thought, it will fade away . Its like we telling someone to stop doing something we can say once , twice , thrice may be innumerable times to someone who isnt listening to us . What if the person listen to us and say I understood , will we repeat the same thing again for a 100th time ? I think may be not(if you said may be yes, then that needs help ;))
I learnt that being vulnerable is not a sign of weakness but its strength to show others that I am vulnerable and its only human. We never know what we get to learn in the process of sharing and how that might change our lives . Ofcourse too much of anything is too bad so if we keep whining then God save us!
Listening helps immensely . Listening to the gut, intuition , people around , soul inside us . All that is happening around may have a message but we need to listen .
I believe happiness is a state of mind , but being genuinely happy and not running away from the reality is the sign of real happiness . not cleaning a wound will only aggravate it no?

#Run

I started running in a phase of life where I wanted to run away from a lot of things , I wanted to tire myself so that I can pass out in the night .. I was never fond of running yet I made a move towards it . Waking up at 5 am every morning and heading to the stadium was an ordeal especially when I couldn’t sleep well, yet I pushed myself and then after a couple of months 10 k happened and few more 10 k’s… It was exhilarating .

I then gave up :), we as humans will do everything when we are suffering and the moment we get to the shores we forget the waves which helped us reach where we are now. I got busy with work and life went on until 6 months ago when the need to restart the workout regime became the goal and then again the running bug bit and it all fell in place . I am still struggling to get things right, I still huff and puff, yet I feel nice after that 40 minutes in the morning . That “me” time when my mind is not chattering as it is completely focussed on the run and conserving all the energy .

I Learnt that more the pain , more the gain. If I had to remain in my comfort zone then I wouldn’t have ventured out and learnt more or discovered myself. The fact that the pain makes me a better runner and sculpts me is a thought that keeps me going , similarly in life we do mistakes repeatedly . We dont let go of toxic activities and people(comfort zone), we hang on to them with the fear that we cant exist without them , we question ourselves as to what will happen to us if they are not around and in most cases we feel Life ends…  In these instances that one push , one determination to let go actually does so much good. The move out of the comfort zone is very painful yet it releases all the pain and make us stronger humans..

I realised running or any activity that we do stepping out of our comfort zones launch us into better places , help us meet better people , ensures we live better lives . Especially running is one sport which ensures our brain is not playing evil and doling out negative feelings . There is no time to weave stories . There is no place for negative self talks , there is no place for anything unwanted . I am feeling so good that I wanted to do this bit to urge any of you who is going through a rough patch in your life , just RUN . Not from your problem , but towards the solution . A healthy mind will ensure a healthy thought process and hence a happy life . I believe if even one person is benefitted from my story then my purpose is accomplished .I wanted to urge all of you to move , step out , make that move and run towards the horizons , achieve those goals and bring in loads of happiness .. For I have done that , so can you .. IMG_6211.JPG